This will probably be my last entry.

 

For the year.

 

I'm trying to rewind and playback.

 

There were choices. There were hesitations. There were decisions. There was freedom. There was disappointment. There were tears. There were grouses. And of course, there were the lame jokes.

 

Change is inevitable. No matter how comfortable you are in your own cosy little zone, everything else around you is changing. I'd put it off for far too long. Procrastinator. Yeap, that's me.

 

I still don't know what decided things for me. Maybe I was a victim of circumstance. But ever since I started working, I've always paved my own roads. Maybe subconciously, I know what I wanted and that pulled me in the direction I wanted to go. I believe if you put enough thought into something, there's no right or wrong direction. It's what you do after deciding which way to go that makes it right or wrong.

 

And I did a lot of thinking while I was holidaying in England in July. In 30 years of my life, I don't think I've had a better experience. It made me realise what I've been missing out on. It made me realise there are others more important than myself. It changed my perception about certain issues.

 

People say all things happen for a reason. Do they? Seriously? I didn't know what to think. It changed my life. It was a bleak moment. I felt lost for a time. It didn't matter what others thought. But something happened along the way. Something that changed the way I feel and think about it all. Somewhere I saw the strength and the will. Perhaps there was a silver lining to be found after all. One thing's for certain. We have to soldier on.

 

I've mulled over choices in life. I've made life-altering decisions. I've found a sense of freedom. I've felt disappointments. I've embraced dark moments. I've hoped for better days to come. I've lived through 2006. Well, almost.

 

Here's to the new year everyone. May we all have better days to come our way.

What I saw this morning made me realise that some people just simply have a death wish. I was on my way to work and I arrived at this intersection that feeds out onto a highway. An Indian lady, probably working for the local city council, was standing in the middle of the road at that very intersection, broom and dustpan in hand, sweeping sand on the bloody road! I looked twice and three times to be sure she was actually sweeping and not some witch trying to cross the road. And I'm pretty sure every other car jammed up at the intersection was thinking the same thing I was - "WTF?!"

 

She was obviously oblivious to the fact that one minute she could be potential employee of the month for braving traffic to do her duty and next minute becoming an ugly roadkill smear on the road. It's like she had radioactive roti canai for breakfast which fried her brain cells extra crispy. But what was surprising was that nobody honked at her; every driver just steered clear of her nonchalant sweeping and took off down the highway. Let's hope all she made was a sandstorm from her sweeping instead of headlines in tomorrow's papers.

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Speaking of roti canai, the government has finally put paid to rumours that our Malaysian astronauts would be making teh tarik and flipping roti canai in space. These people just love toying with the minds of poor taxpayers like us. All the while we thought we were sending clowns up there with the objective of opening a mamak stall in the space station. Well, at least they'll be making themselves useful in space performing various experiments in the name of science. I guess now we'll never know if you can toss a roti canai in zero gravity without tearing it.

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A good friend told me today that Valentine's is about going through tough times together to see the sunshine, and that includes having stomach aches together. So I'm thinking, when the couple takes medicine together in the form of 'Po Chai' pills (they're Chinese medicine for stomach cramps in case you didn't know), there's going to be a new phrase this Valentine's. No more I love yous. Listen up people - "I Po Chai you".